I'm always so overwhelmed by the prospect of creating art. Why should I? Who do I think I am? I don't even know what I want to communicate! I don't have anything new or original to say! And what the hell is art anyway?!!! Am I doing this to punish myself? I'm not even starting on the actual theoretics behind it all. It all makes me crazy... but here I am.
Working it all out is so chaotic, it raises questions, too many for one girl and one lifetime. Who are we? Why do we exist, why are we so dependent on each other, why do we like, or need art? Why do we need to communicate?! What's my role in all of this? Why can't someone just tell me! Sigh.
Because I like finding answers? Maybe I like finding questions. Perhaps that's why I always feel so overwhelmed and under-informed. I produce questions more rapidly and randomly than I find the answers (if they even exist). But it's not always about questions. It's bigger than that. It's about truth; identifying it, connecting with it, enjoying it.
Thus, my documentation of it. What better platform to document my search than a blog? It's more reliable than my memory. I'm more likely to think more about what I've just seen before closing that tab, if I think it's worthy of posting here. And its perfect for my never-ending desire to justify my thoughts and actions. And ideally, this will all lead to my making sense of it all.
So, essentially, the following are my thoughts & findings, which I will analyse the fuck out of, with the intention of working out who I am, what my place is, what my strengths, interests, likes/dislikes (never underestimate the greatness of the process of elimination)... and the perfect platform to voice my incessantly analytical internal monologue.
Oh also (and possibly most importantly), this should also document my ideas and thoughts about my Photography project/s for the year! *Deep breath*
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